It's incredibly difficult!

I have such an addictive personality and it fucking sucks... Waking up every morning and the first thing I think about is getting stoned or beamed... And it's starting to follow me every where, just as it used to..... And how is it possible that my love for drugs is stronger than my love for anything else? I can think of all the good reasons as to why I quit in the first place but the harm it causes is nothing compared to how good it makes me feel inside.